So it is still hitting me that I am pregnant, and with twins! I am gently reminded every morning ;) I have waited and dreamt so long for this to happen. I thought I would be so excited, instead I am so nervous. I am so nervous to become a Mommy. Have I done enough in my life pre-children? Will we be okay financially if I decide to stay home? How will our marriage change? Oddly enough, these are all questions we asked ourselves a year and a half ago when we decided we were ready for a family and we knew all the answers and were very confident. Why the change? Is this how normal women feel when they get pregnant? Is there always some level of anxiety when thinking about the biggest change that will happen in our lives to date? Am I normal? Ha!
And then the twins are an entirely different worry. I felt confident in my skills to parent one child. How am I feeling about two? How do you parent two babies, two children, two teenagers? What do you do for birthdays? What if we have a boy and a girl, how do you get mom to bond with the boy and dad to bond with the girl? It always seems like boy/girl families always have a tendency for the boy to do a lot of boy things with the dad and the girl to do girly things with the mom. As one of three girls, I am thankful for the "boy" opportunities my parents gave us, building us a train table, taking us to baseball games, teaching us to play football, as well as the girly things too; having every Barbie, American Girl, and cabbage patch doll know to man!
So again, are these normal first time Mommy fears or am I just paranoid and over-analyzing? Which I do have a tendency to do!
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