Whatta day

I know that I have expressed my feelings about work on here before and they are pretty much the same. One day I am loving being a working mom. I know my children are cared for by the best people ever and having a blast at preschool in the mornings but yesterday left me in tears at the end of the day and cursing my job. I had an appointment after school that lasted until 4:10. I had to meet Jay at the license plate office and after standing in the wrong line for 30 minutes, standing in the right line for 45 minutes we learned that all of our paperwork for the new car was at a different location. I pretty much lost it on my way out of the door. It was 5:45, I hadn't seen my children. I had not started dinner (meaning they would eat crap for supper instead of the healthy meal that I planned). I had to leave at 6:45 to coach cheerleading (which isn't that bad because that's the babies' bed time). That left me with approx. 45 minutes of time with my children in a 24 hour day. 45 minutes is not going to cut it. I know this isn't the norm. Usually I am hope by the time my kids wake up from naps and I get lots of time to play with them before we start cooking dinner. But even one day like this makes me question spending time away from the babies.

I'm going to stick it out this year. I've made a commitment to be here and to teach these kids, who I truly care so much about, but I'm going to have to think long and hard about where I want to be next year. Any other parents ever felt this way about leaving a career to stay at home? I'm not sure I'm cut out to be at home with my babies all day long. I'm looking into creative options to keep my busy but still allow me time at home with my babies (and lets be honest, make a little money while I'm at it). I'm looking forward to being home early today and hanging out with my sweet babies. Hoping that some quality time today will erase all of the negativity from yesterday :)

just because they were so sweet and quiet and still