Unhappy

So today was the first day I've been unhappy with REACH. The nurse called back and said that it was up to me. We could wait a month or go ahead with it. She said that she didn't really get a chance to talk to Dr. Wing for a long time, but he said I could do either and didn't get his recommendation. I told her lets go ahead with it. She scheduled me for my ultrasound and bloodwork tomorrow, CD3. She told me Dr. Katz would do the monitoring and she checked to make sure that I still had refills. Huh? Refills? Um refills? I thought we were doing IVF? I guess not... I'm guessing we're trying IUI again? How was this not communicated?

I don't think I can take another IUI! And what was the other option she was talking about? Just doing nothing this month?! She also said something about how sometimes the Clomid doesn't even do anything for the guy. I'm just wondering; with his count sooo low, WHY are we trying this again?! I'm really frustrated. Have you ever felt like the doctor wasn't listening to what you had to say? I definitely feel like this now. I don't know what to do. I'm really unhappy with the situation. I'm unhappy that it doesn't seem like my doctor has a plan for me. Am I just going to sit here and do IUI after IUI? I want to scream at the lady MY HUSBAND HAS NO SPERM! What the F^*$ are we doing!?!?! I just cannot even express my disappointment. I feel like I'm being told no but not given any response. I probably won't even see my doctor until next month. I want to cry.

Also, I'm concerned that I'm starting my period so early. I mean day 25? When I'm on progesterone to postpone it! Do they even care? It really sucks not being able to control this situation. UGH